Well i got more than i bargined for last night.
And its a really good thing that im learning how to better and quicker ground and center because some big stuff was pushed thru me, and it helped that i was able to push it out

Got to talk to the spirit i wanted to and got an answer, but then later when 2 others asked and got answered something my world crashed i broke down into tears and curled up into a ball I felt scared sad afraid and a failure and no im not going into details for now. Ive gotten better and some things have been explained but it will definately be a rough couple of months while i process these feelings and get to work.
Lots of stuff to think about and process and work on